life's unpredictable

2008-07-02T17:52:00.008+08:00

sigh sigh sigh sigh
it doesn't feel right anymore
it feels out of place
and it feels she doesn't anymore
it feels she ____
it feels its gonna happen
it feels like fuck
it feels like im gonna die
it feels like i shouldn't bother anymore
it feels like shit
it feels like everythings negative
do i always have to start??
but when i do. it seems dead.
sigh sigh sigh sigh
who's been talking to you lately with weird question that you've not told me of like you usually do?
maybe that person is what making you want something new??
maybe you want that person now??
maybe im in the way of you two??
maybe you're talking to that person thats why it seems dead??
maybe what L said was true
maybe it'll happen again
maybe im a puppet
why before it happen, we were able to hold each other in front of your schoolmates, but not mine??
why do you say ____ when they ask who your ___ is??
maybe you want ____
maybe you're not proud
of course you can now, you need not worry so much now
but its harder for me...
or maybe...im just thinking too much. sigh FUCK!!

if you want just go =((

='( just tell me instead of pulling yourself away from what you really really REALLY want... ='((

2008-06-22T14:34:00.001+08:00

i realize something or am i just too scared... =((

2008-06-22T02:15:00.002+08:00

somehow i feel something is wrong...
somehow i feel its coming...
somehow i feel what im not really suppose to feel...
somehow i feel down...
somehow i feel it won't last long...
somehow i feel you don't want this...
somehow i feel insecure...
somehow i feel you want but not with me...
somehow i feel crappy...
somehow i feel like its raining...
somehow i feel pain...
somehow...somehow...somehow...
='((

2008-06-21T15:57:00.002+08:00

Hey people Okay i've got nothing much to say actually. haha.

So yesterday I met her at her friend's birthday chalet. Haha could only stay for awhile though. Happy 15 Years Old Lydia! haha yeah so thats pretty much it.
Studies are a bored. Life's a bore too.

One good thing is that i have her now =)) i'll treasure it i swear i will. i'll love you till the end. till forever. i won't leave you i swear i won't. i'll only leave you till you want me too. i love you =)

2008-06-17T20:42:00.003+08:00

Hey hey hey! Okay the past two days have been kinda boring. Lol. Yesterday I had to do maths the whole day. And I really mean the whole day. But it was worth it. Cause I finally did some studying. Like finally. I was like listening to Maroon 5's old album practically the whole day. It made me sad during some moments but got over it.

So today was not to bad. Woke up at around 11.40?? Listen to some music. And kinda dance like some fool cause no one was home. Haha. The clean up the house and showered at around 2?? Haha smelly yes but I don't care cause no one was home! Then read some letters that I still kept that was given by her. Made me sad practically thinking about it. Sigh. well i don't know cause what you tell me now is what you told me before and in those letters. sigh. and im very scared. sigh.. =(( Then I did two of my English essays that was suppose to be done so yup! Now I'm left with my social studies essays and I'm off to do it now so till next time. BYE PEOPLE!!! =))

2008-06-16T14:19:00.002+08:00

two word that describe you rahim,
fucked up.
you are fucked up.
thats why it happened before
thats why your parents are doing all this
and also because they love you.
and what are you doing now.
you're just letting it out.
it doesn't make sense.
do you love them or not?
here they are trying to help you.
but you're just being a spoil brat
there's no point in crying about it.
you're just some fucked up piece of shit. thats it.
your parents love you soooo damn much
they give you everything you ever need. and want
but what are you doing??
nothing. you're just wasting your life away.
they want you to do well
you are not doing well
you want something.
they give you.
you're not giving them what they want. which has nothing to do with money.
they are giving you want you want. which involves money.
what they want is free. but you have to work hard for it
what you want has a cost. which involves money and hard work.
you left your mom alone when she wanted you to follow her
you didn't want to follow
then you felt bad and cry over it when she already left.
what the fuck is wrong with you!!
rahim...
when are you going to stop dreaming??
WAKE UP YOUR BLOODY IDEA!!
sigh...

2008-06-14T02:01:00.003+08:00

HAH HAH HAH HAH HAH HAH!! reeeeeeeeeeepeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaat
its gonna reeeeeeeeeepeeeeeeaaaaaaat
history its gonna repeat itself
hah hah hah hah. hoh hoh hoh hoh.
god bless the ones that might get hurt.
is it?
rahim you're mad!!
ni hem pen!!
kamu gila!
*tamil language*!!
GET OVER IT!
FACE IT!!
fuck it??
*they'll tear us apart if you give them the chance!!*

contradiction
1:some stuff
2:some opposite stuff
HAH lame!!

=P
sighfuckthis
itsgonnahappenagain
itscomingsoon
ibetthiswholeworlditscomingsoon
sigh
='((

2008-06-07T23:24:00.002+08:00

WAZZUP PEEP! Okay i am updating for one reason. Just one. And thats cause sweeeet asked me too. Heh.

OKAY!!! So let me see. I've been meeting her quite alot lately and i feel hhhaaaaaaaaaappppppyyyyyyyy!!!! Heh. My wish is coming true!! =))

So today i met sweetsss.. then went to sim lim square and realised its not the place when i asked my friend so went to sim lim tower!!! Heh. So yeap went there! But then didn't buy my stuff cause like mom didn't give me cash for it. So only took measurements!! uh huh!! Then went to simei and met up with sweets yeap. Heh sorry left without letting you know. Heh.

so yeah guess thats it. heh. take care!!

sigh...

2008-06-03T22:22:00.003+08:00

Hey people. Life's been pretty hard lately. Remedial and all. Well can't exactly remember what happen last week so I'll just say what I remember.

So on Saturday went to Toa Payoh kinda early cause Arina asked me to meet her there to give Afiq a birthday suprise. So yeap did. The funny part is that we bumped into her teacher there. Haha he wanted to buy a cake for Afiq too so yeah didn't have to take out money. =)) Then went to the classroom for awhile and I felt odd cause I've never been there and I'm not a student there but the teacher doesn't mind. Haha he invited me in there too! So Afiq came and I had to distract him to somewhere else awhile and of all place I brought him to the living room. Haha. But thats where the celebration was suppose to be so nvm! After awhile Arina asked me to bring him in so yeah did so and haha. HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN AFIQ!!! Haha. Yeap that was about it till I met them again after their class. Suppose to watch a movie but there was nothing on so yeap. Went to my house and yeah they went home after that.

Then Arina's birthday was 2 days later so went out with them and few friends. Haha. ME and Zakiah's plan didn't work out at first then came back in action. Haha. We bought the cake with help from Zafri and Faizal. Haha. Then Zafri Faizal and the rest brought Arina to the Esplanade rooftop while me and Zakiah had to take the long route to the Esplanade. Then met up with Zaf and Faizal at the first level of Esplanade. Did the cake and brought it up. And we kinda suprised Arina. Haha. Kinda had a cake fight but I didn't get any cake on me =)). Good for me! haha Then we all had dinner at Burger King. Then went home from there. Had an weird moment in the bus but nvm. =))

Well yeah thats about it i guess. till next time!! cheers peeps!! =))

to anon:
stop being a pussy and tell me who you are. and don't you say that to her! FUCK YOU!
to someone:
i'm sorry i don't. i really am sorry
to you:
i do ____ you very very much. it won't happen again. i swear it won't. im afraid to. i want to ___ you and all but i guess i can't=((

2008-05-26T00:26:00.002+08:00

Hey people. The days have been pretty bad lately. I know many people will think its a stupid choice but ya. So today dad gave me a choice, to buy iPod or a new phone. It was kinda hard to pick but ya I chose the phone. I'm happy I got my new phone but it isn't making me feel any better somehow.

sigh. i know you don't want to anymore. but i'll wait. i blew the 2nd chance and i'm sorry. i can't help but to love you. i'll wait. even if you move on with some other guy i'll wait. even if it brings me through alot of pain it doesn't matter cause all i want is you. i'll wait...

2008-05-17T01:44:00.001+08:00

I don't know why but I'm feeling kinda down now. Somehow I wish nothing happen before. I want to get over it but its difficult. =((

Sum 42
"With Me"

I don't want this moment
To ever end
Where everything's nothing, without you
I'd wait here forever just to,
To see you smile
'Cause it's true
I am nothing without you

Through it all
I've made my mistakes
I stumble and fall
But I mean these words

[Chorus:]
I want you to know
With everything, I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
I'll hold onto this moment you know
As I'll bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

Thoughts read unspoken
Forever in vow
And pieces of memories
Fall to the ground
I know what I didn't have so
I won't let this go
'Cause it's true
I am nothing without you

All the streets,
where I walked alone
With nowhere to go
Have come to an end

[Chorus]

In front of your eyes
It falls from the skies
When you don't know what you're looking to find
In front of your eyes
It falls from the skies
When you just never know what you will find
(What you will find [x4])

I don't want this moment
To ever end
Where everything's nothing, without you

i feel like crying so badly now. =((

2008-05-06T21:37:00.001+08:00

Hey people!! Been meeting her quite often except for today heh =))

4th May 2008:
Religious class was rather okay I suppose. Me and my cousin were the first to be there for the very first time!! woooo! After class went to my cousin's house to have lunch. Damn it was too filling. I kinda slept for awhile at her house. Heh heh. Then i met her and her brother at Tampines interchange took bus to their house there and sat and played for awhile at the playground. Heh. =) then went home to study. heh.

5th May '08:
Physics was rather okay so yeap. Heh. Went to eat at parkway parade after that with classmates to eat at mcdonald's. Then Adrian came to my house and "studied" and played games for a little while. Heh. Then I went to meet her for awhile heh. She came over for a little while then we took a bus ride. Heh. I think we did the most stupid thing ever, we got off the bus for no reason. Haha, we actually ran for the bus! Heh. Then came back to tamp and sat down at the playground. Then she followed me meet my friends for a little while before she left. Heh. yeap!

6th May '08:
Maths paper was rather well, confident to pass. Heh. Then i met her for a little while before I went home to change and all. Heh. Then i met her at her playground there a little while heh. THE LITTLE GIRL HATES ME FOR GOD KNOWS WHAT REASON!!! HAHAHA. -.- She thought catching me around was fun! wtf?? Haha. Then finally got to spend some time with her. Heh. Nice moments =))

7th May '08:
Today was Geog paper and I think I'm going to fail as i did it kinda fast and ya. I had around half an hour to sleep!! Then met Gavin under his block and slack, and Afiq came along. Heh. Sat down and chat a little while before we all left for home. Yeap!! Heh

I'm talking to you now and I love you =))

2008-05-03T21:59:00.004+08:00

Hey peeps!! Past few days have been good and bad at the same time.

Listen to this while reading!! Heh this song is nice =))

Bad:
- English paper was rather to high for the vocab, or is it my vocab is low?? heh
- Malay, kinda tooo many words I don't know. Which means my malay vocab is bad.
- Maths was rather okay I suppose. Not to bad, only didn't know some of them.
- Social studies, FAIL!!! Fuck! I didn't do the bloody SEQ whereby I knew the answers! but didn't have enough time damn it! FUCK! Next time, will do SEQ first.

Yeah I'm so going to fail damn it!!! FUCK!

But the good times were when i met up with her =)) Heh, studied with her. Yeap really did study okay!! Haha. Happy moments. Heh. But I've got short attention span damn it!

i'm kinda confuse. :/ can anyone answer me. tell me what im doing exactly?? we're doing things like we are. but we're not. but i do. =(
and....i'm sorry...

2008-04-27T23:33:00.004+08:00

DON'T SAY THOSE WORDS WHEN YOU'VE DONE IT! DON'T TRY TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER BY SAYING THOSE WORDS CAUSE IT ISN'T MAKING ME FEEL ANY BETTER! IT MAKES ME FEEL FUCKING WORSE! IT MAKES ME THINK LIKE I'M A FUCKING DOG! I JUST FUCKING CAN'T TAKE IT WHEN YOU TOLD ME THE DATE! FUCK! i still do but i wonder why. why can't i stop. this is fucking irritating. i need something to get things out of my mind.

2008-04-21T17:59:00.003+08:00

MAYDAY PARADE
MISERABLE AT BEST
Katie, don't cry, I know
You're trying your hardest
And the hardest part is letting go
Of the nights we shared
Ocala is calling and you know it's haunting
But compared to your eyes, nothing shines quite as bright
And when we look to the sky, its not mine, but i want it so

Let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know he's there)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes

Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best

You're all that I hoped I'd find
In every single way
And everything I would give
Is everything you couldn't take
Cause nothing feels like home, you're a thousand miles away
And the hardest part of living
Is just taking breaths to stay

'Cause I know I'm good for something
I just haven't found it yet
But I need it

So let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know he's there)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes

Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best

ladada ladada ladadaoh ohhh

And this will be the first time in a week
That I'll talk to you
And I can't speak
It's been three whole days since I've had sleep
Because I dream of his lips on your cheek
And I got the point that I should leave you alone
But we both know that I'm not that strong
And I miss the lips that made me fly

So let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know he's there)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes

Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable
And I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable
And I can live without you but
Oh, without you I'll be miserable at best

Oh well, crying isn't gonna change anything.

...

2008-04-16T21:33:00.004+08:00

Its only a few hours left before it all comes down like a heavy rain. The time when it started, the happiness, the great feeling, it all happen a year ago. That was the day when i started to feel like I'm the happiest guy in the world. But once again it can never come back. Can never feel what I felt. It was so great. It can never be repeated. "I'll l--- you for the rest of my life", "No one can ever be in our way", "You can never be r-------", "I'd die without you". The phrases that I thought it was true. But i guess nothing can last forever. Always easy to go down, Never easy to go up. Can someone help me?? I guess no one can. Help given, but not wanted. Help wanted but not given. Wth is wrong with me. Everythings not going right. Sleepless nights, sleepy day.

I Love You

2008-04-15T20:48:00.002+08:00

Hey so today was aye okay.
And I tried my best to really not think about anything. I tried studying and tried paying attention in class today. It works at times, but the it just keep coming into my mind.

After school I skipped Adam Khoo crap and yeah, and I followed Gavin and Faizal and sat and chat. Then Gavin went to fetch his "friend" from SAFRA and came. Damn I couldn't take it when I see both of them together. They seemed very happy and thats good. Hope they last long. Felt like crying so badly at times but i just kept it in me during that period of time.

So yeap that was my day today.

I've got no idea why the hell you're scolding me for just because I'm not hungry for dinner. Whats wrong with not eating?? I don't get you.

can't stop. really really can't stop. i'm trying my fucking best and feeling so fucking annoyed with myself. goodbye.

2008-04-14T20:46:00.004+08:00

i thought you were the one, my one and only true one. you promised. you were afraid to face another break-up situation. i swore to you i wouldn't leave you. i swore to you that i'll love you forever. you gave me hope for everlasting love. but i guess nothing last forever. its pure bullshit. forever love, pure bullshit, "i'll love you forever and ever". what love is there now. you said you wouldn't care what your family says and that you'd show them that this can last forever. i wonder if what you say is an excuse or what. just so you won't hurt me soo much. you admit you think you like someone else. but you don't have to say all the others. that part hurts me the most. while the others are just extras. i guess thats that. and like i've sworn. i'll still love you forever and ever. and one thing i admit, i can't move on. as long as you're happy i'll be happy. good luck with that guy and all the best. you can do it. he'll take care of you from now on. and we'll just be friends from now on. and the following lyrics, describe well enough about how i feel. I Love You.

MAYDAY PARADE
Three Cheers For Five Years
I swear that you don't have to go
I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought we could wait for the snow
To wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
I thought I could live in your arms
And spend every moment I had with you
Stay up all night with the stars
Confess all the faith that I had in you (I had in you)

Too late, I'm sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words so sing along for me baby

For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same

I thought with a month of apart
Together would find us an opening
And moonlight would provide the spark
And that I would stumble across the key
Or break down the door to your heart
Forever could see 'us', not 'you and me'
And you'd help me out of the dark
And I'd give my heart as an offering (an offering)

Too late, I'm sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words so sing along for me baby

For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same

And I will always remember you as you are right now to me
And I will always remember you now
Remember you now

So sleep alone tonight with no one here just by your side
Sleep alone tonight.

(How does he feel, how does he kiss)
So sleep alone tonight.
(How does he taste when he's on your lips.)
With no one here just by your side
(How does he feel, how does he kiss)
Sleep alone tonight.
[x3]

I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you I want to
But I can't forgive you
So when this is over don't blow your composure baby
I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you I want to
But I can't forgive you
So when this is over don't blow your composure
I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you I want to

2008-02-07T00:08:00.000+08:00

Hey people sorry for not blogging lately. pretty busy lately. Yeap. So anyway the week that just past, can't say it was good neither it was bad.

29th January, the happiest day of the month, can't say its bad, can't say its good. So came home nothing much happen. then i went to meet baby and her brother at their house there. Wasn't so bad. Kinda fun. Wednesday had band was pretty fun!! Thursday i went to meet baby awhile then had to go off for tuition damn it! Heh. Friday... hmm went jamming then i went some band concert by the SMU heh. Damn were the horns good. Heh.

Saturday, was the gig day!! Heh BABY YOU LOOK HOTT LAH!! heh. Then followed baby to the church then i went home! then went out dinner with family. heh. sigh... then thats about it. then Sunday was my first religious class day. wasn't so bad since i had my cousins. Heh. then i went to meet baby for a short while although she wasn't feeling too good. I bought my juniors jacket then went home. then went to tm to see baby awhile then i went to gavin's house for a little while.

then monday came, damn mr glosz had to hold the band back. I'm sorry baby that i was super super late!!! then i followed baby to buy her dinner. then i went home. tuesday came AND ITS BABY'S BIRTHDAY!! HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY BABY!! heh. met her awhile then yea. then today, wednesday, came. damn today wasn't bad got to see baby!! =)) heh. then she went home then i went home. heh.

Heh!! good cause i got to see baby quite often!! =)) bad cause of some reasons

you scold me a hell lot. but you don't know that you've hurt me. thanks alot.

2008-01-22T21:08:00.001+08:00

Hey people sorry for not blogging kinda long. have been busy. Yea anyway. Not much has happen. The good thing is that, I've been seeing baby alot now-a-days and thats good!! =)) but bad cause I feel bad taking her time away from her friends. I'm sorry baby.

School has been aye okay i suppose. Homeworks studies all fine i guess. Except for D&T as I sort have some trouble with that. Band has been good. Nothing bad happen so far for band.

Friday went jamming and yea it was hell lots of fun. Although i was late but yea it was fun. Heh. After that met baby at Bedok with her friend and she was waiting for her mum. Heh. Then followed baby home. Heh.

Saturday I met baby after band. Then sorta wasted her time. Baby I'm sorry i left you alone. I shouldn't have done that. I promise you that won't ever happen again i promise you baby. Then i followed her home. Then i went for my friend from St Andrew's School POP with my other friends and my the JC band was great.

Anyway Sunday met baby went to the library with her to study. And do some homework at the same time. Damn i hate having short attention span. Its bloody hell irritating. Yea then me and her took bus 3 all the way to punggol. Heh have no idea why but yea. heh. But it was fun. Took some pictures with her this time. Heh. I'll show you at the end of the blog. Heh. Which is now. Heh. I'm using the laptop so i only have 3 of the pictures. I'll upload the rest next time alright. =))

Baby I'm sorry for everything that happened to you. Its my fault and I'm taking the blame for it. If you weren't with me, You'd have a better life i suppose. You wouldn't get scolding at all. I'm sorry

2007-12-18T02:26:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 8 MONTHS BABY!! I love you very very very very very(x infinite) much baby!! Even though we may have huge huge fights, quarrel or whatsoever, I'm sorry for all the bad thing I've done! I Just love you oh so very very very much baby!! Too much that sometimes I'm even afraid to lose you!! I won't burst at you anymore baby! I know i can be insecure at times but I'm too afraid to lose you baby!! I love you very very very much!!
I LOVE YOU KEISHA EMILIA ALISON GARNELL!!

Okay well today was love love love love love!! Haha. Woke up early and cleaned up and everything real quick cause i was afraid i'll be late. HEH. Then i was stoning at the com for awhile and all listening to music.

Then i went down to meet Keisha. BABY YOU LOOK HOTT TODAY OKAY!!! SHHHH!! Heh. sitting stoning and yea then one lady kinda freaky. Heh. my neighbours mom. Heh. Then walking around. I wanted to play with her at the playground. HEH. kinda childish but then nevermind cause it was raining so we walked around. And around and around. Haha. Then took pics! I'll upload them later. Heh. Then =)))) so yea that was my day.

I LOVE YOU BABY!!!

2007-12-15T20:55:00.000+08:00

SO today i stayed home and did nothing. HEH. i woke up at 2 and no one else was home! So yeap. Heh

Anyway, the last 2 days was fun!
Day one:
Okay! so i woke up late then had to do stuff. Damn. My mother didn't allow me to go soccer but i insist. lol. So i was late to meet baby! I'M SORRY!! But luckily gladys was with you. HEH. IM SORRY! well then headed for marine parade to meet the rest.

Then unexpectedly i saw my cousin, Arina, there. Haha. She gave my baby hugs and kisses(quite shocking) haha! But nevermind she's TOOOOOOO friendly i say. then waited there and yea later on we walked to east coast to where the place was. Sorry baby! Sorry i keep leaving you alone and all! IM SORRY!! but my cousin was there. Heh.

So i played. I couldn't play properly at first cause she was watching so yea got nervous. I don't know why but yea. Haha. But after awhile got the hang of it. I DID WHAT I SAID BABY!! actually more. HEH. NVM NEXT TIME MORE GOALS FOR YOU BABY!! Hehe.I keep getting whacked on my left leg. Is everyone like against it? Lol. But nvm.

After that me and baby went to the water breakers for awhile or so. HEH! It was very very nice. And i wanted to say something but i forgot to say that time. DAMN IT. it was such a nice timing to say but noooo i had to forget about it. Heh. then baby took cab home and then i went home. Heh.

Day two:
Haha. I was kinda late for prayers. HEH. so yeap. Then i went home. Had nothing to do until 4 or so. Showered. Fought with mom abit cause i wanted to go to the vjc concert. Heh. NVM. I went there to support my seniors who were performing! YAY! Then I had gastric when the whole thing was about to finish. DAMN IT! i swear i couldn't walk properly. I couldn't laugh. So we all ate at macs. Haha my mistake to drink coke. haha. Then when we all heading home at the bus-stop, i felt like vomitting really badly but i just kept on spitting and burping. i could feel the vomit but i just didn't. haha. THen went home. Got scolding after that then ya. HEH

Those were the 2 fun days!!

baby, you do know that i love you. very very very very much.
i'd do anything for you, even if it takes my life away, i'll still love you.
even if you leave me, i'll still love you.
even if you do anything that hurts me, i'll still love you. you can do whatever you want to me.
but remember i still love you. even after you leave, i'll still love you.
don't do anything for me. nothing at all. but i just want your love and that is all.
anything beside that that is unnecessary, i won't need it. i really really love you with my whole heart.
baby i really mean what i say to you. i love you.
do whatever you want. i'll still love you.
even if it brings real pain. pain thats hard to get over. i'll stil love you.
if you don't believe me think what you want. i love you. i really do.

2007-12-13T01:36:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry i'm not the guy you wanted
im sorry for all these
i'm sorry for making you cry
i'm sorry for not a great bf that you ever wanted
i'm sorry for the worst bf ever
i'm sorry for everything
sorry for everything that has happened.

2007-12-10T18:56:00.000+08:00

I feel so alone

So here's a few band camp pics i found that i forgot to upload. Lol. Sorry i only got 2 of it. Haha, if it isn't clear its because it was at night. haha

2007-12-09T18:54:00.000+08:00

Love is just another story

Hey Hey!! Okay i forgot about posting about band camp but nvm about it cause everyday is band. since its called a band camp. lol

Okay yesterday the gig was aye okay i guess. Haha. I nearly lost all the tickets at the bus-stop!! But i had to go back there to find it. Well so i did. Met cousins after that at the Tampines Interchange.

Afiq!! YOU BUSTED ME!! NABEI CI BAI!! CAN BUY FROM ME BUY FROM OTHER PEOPLE!! haha okay im Kidding! Haha well went to DXO and And met tariq and all. Haha.Adrian was there too with his gf. Haha. And as always, we shook hands everytime we meet. Such gentlemen. HAHA. Okay no its a normal thing. Haha.

Well after awhile my parents came and aunt came HAHA. Nvm its okay. The only one that they'll be coming to. HAHA. Haha when we're playing damn it there was a heavy mosh there. Haha. Then like we were playing one more song! JUST ONE MORE!! until the guy HAD to ruin everything! HE JUST HAD TO OKAY!! IRRITATING SON OF A BITCH!! lol But it was fun.

Well than we all had dinner then me and cousins met up with our family then we head home. Haha well thats about it. lol. Pics maybe later on i've not uploaded any yet. Haha.

Baby i'm sorry for all the major fights that we had
Its just that i really really don't wanna lose you baby
I just love you very very very extremely much
But keep in mind that I'll always love you
Cause you're the only one I love
No one else but you baby
Always and forever
You will have a special place in my heart
I love you baby!
Keisha = Love <3

2007-12-08T00:50:00.000+08:00

I love you and only you

Hello people! Okay this week was mainly band band band band. Lol. But fun!!Heh band all the way till yesterday when i went jamming with Tariq and Shawn. Haha and it was kinda fun. Then we went to tariq's house but i went to meet keisha then we went to tariq's house. Haha. And baby!!! YOU CHEATED OKAY!! USE PILLOW ALL!!! Heh. Nevermind there will be more next time!! Heh

well thats it. Boring yes but AT LEAST I UPDATE!! rather than reading the same old thing HEH. GOODBYE!!

Baby i miss you!! =(( I love you loads and loads and loads!!

2007-12-03T12:53:00.001+08:00

Okay okay, i'll post about camp later when i come home. But for now i'm just going to say what i feel.

Sigh, i din't know anymore.
I'm trying to care about it, tried not to give a damn about it.
But i can't, i just can't.
I don't know if this is even true anymore.
It all seems quite clear.

And guys don't worry i'll always be there.

2007-11-25T23:21:00.000+08:00

Don't leave the ones you love for the ones you like
Because the ones you like will leave you for the ones they love

Hello people! Okay today i met Timothy, Andre, Marcus and Gary at parkway in the afternoon and walked around for like damn long. Then we went to play pool. Haha it was kinda fun. Then we went to Bryan's confirmation but Andre didn't cause he had something on. lol. I SWEAR I'M A BASTARD TODAY!!!!! lol. But Anyways after that ate dinner then we went home. Haha. Thats it. =))

lol thats it

And baby i'll miss you loads and loads during the band camp. But i've miss you too much that i need to see you soon!!! =((

and am i too worried??? lol someone tell me.

alright i gotta go pack my stuff for band camp tmr bye people!!

2007-11-24T21:34:00.001+08:00

You tell me you'd die for me, but you must live for me too

HEH okay sorry but thats true okay baby!!! I won't want you to die for me!! Heh. Okay Okay.

So today i was late for band damn it my teacher had to call then i woke up which was at 9. HAHA. So i rushed for band and then took sec 1's awhile then washed my instrument. Damn it my feet hurts due to that stupid water hose. Haha.
Then i went to parkway to cut my hair and now its shorter. haha. Then me and friends went to play pool awhile then we went back to the band room and there the junior band room, a room filled with pieces and pieces all over the place. So i kinda help abit then at around 6+ i had to go so i left.
Haha. nothing much happened today exactly.
Haha and now i am officially bankrupt!!!! I soo need money. $$$!!!!!!!!

So cheers people!!! =))
Love Keisha Loads and Loads and Forever and Ever! Keisha=<3

2007-11-23T22:37:00.000+08:00

Hey people!! okay the last 2 days has been great i suppose. Great cause firstly i got to see my baby! hehe <<<333333333!!!! lol.

Yesterday:
Well i supposedly to meet my baby at 9 but then heh i slept at siglap macs while waiting. Then we walked quite awhile, then took bus 12 went to i do not know where, some chinese name road. lol.
I needed to go to the washroom urgently so we went to this shopping mall or i think it is, haha. The smell over there is like super super strong. I don't know what kind of smell that was but yea its just isn't nice to me and baby. lol. Then we took 12 again headed for katong cause i wanted some mini pancake thingy.
Then we went outside my school there at the bus stop, saw quite a number of juniors and friends. haha. Then we waited damn long cause it wasn't time for me to go to st stephens. haha. then took 32 went to st stephens bus stop. haha sat there for quite long.
AND RUSSELL AND CHOY AND TIMOTHY!!! YOU GUYS SAW NOTHING OKAY!!. =)) i was kinda lazy to go to st stephens at the same time. lol. But i went in the end cause i made a promise to Mr Heng but i was kinda late. I COULD HAVE WORN CASUAL CLOTHINGS OKAY!!!! So cacat wear sch u when the rest of the tutors wearing casual. Haha after that i went home. lol.

Today:
Today i went for band! But was really really late. heh. For some open house crap oaky had to perform quite a number of times but i only missed one according to Bryan. So it wasn't that bad.
Then Choy told me my uncle was looking for me since he was helping out with the NCDCC. So i went to see him after performing a few times and that moment there were no parents there for kinda long. haha. He gave me 5 bucks okay!!! hahaha so nice.
And choy said i looked like him. WOW!!! Then After that went back to perform quite a number of times then went to prayers then went to eat lunch. Then friends asked me to play soccer if not i busted. so i played awhile.
Then went off to meet baby AGAIN!!! =)))) <<<<33333333. HEEEEEEE. Then vanessa and teresa came awhile. BUSTED PEOPLE!!!!! WE DID NO HARM TO YOU OKAY!!!! kidding!! heh. Well then i head home! And thats how my days were =))

And baby!!! its okay nothing wrong with the shirt alright don't be sorry!!!! =))

Goodbye People!!!!!
~I Love Keisha Loads And Loads And Forever And Ever!!!!~

2007-11-19T21:27:00.000+08:00

THE RED JUMPSUIT APPARATUS
DAMN REGRET

The moon is shining bright
The mood is feeling right
I'll kiss you on your neck
People will stare but we won't care

We're high above the ground
We're nowhere to be found
Empowered by adrenaline
Feel I've been born again

Again, I am repeating myself
And I know it is kind for you
To sit and pretend

Damn regret, I'll try to forget
Don't worry about me 'cause I'm refined
Cast my line to see what's behind
Did you think you'd persuade me to let you go?

I'm wishing you were here
My weakness is my fear
Alone I am myself
No reason left for me to care

Distracted by the sound
I hear footsteps all around
Empowered by adrenaline
Feel I've been born again

Again, I am repeating myself
And I know it is kind for you
To sit and pretend

Damn regret, I'll try to forget
Don't worry about me 'cause I'm refined
Cast my line to see what's behind
Did you think you'd persuade me to let you go?

You're the only one I turn to
When I feel like no one's there
And when I'm lonely in my darkest hour
You give me the power
To sit and pretend

Damn regret, I'll try to forget
Don't worry about me 'cause I'm refined
Cast my line to see what's behind
Did you think you'd persuade me to let you go?

Did you think I'd forget?
Did you think I'd surrender myself to persuade you to let me go?
Did you think I'd forget?
Did you think I'd surrender myself to persuade you to let me go?

haha okay i think im addicted to that song. hah sometimes that song makes me think alot haha.

ciao =D

2007-11-11T23:52:00.000+08:00

Hey people okay nothing much happen much so far. Went to do my stuffies on friday in band but nothing much. LOL. Then i went to tm and met Keisha there awhile. Boy i've missed her sooo much. Then the TM Yamaha didn't have my solo book so yea followed her to Eastpoint and met her friends Shanna and Olivia there. Then saw Ryan there. Luckily her dad didn't see me. I was sooo scared okay. Haha.

Then i cabbed down to parkway parade to meet my band-mates there and all. I didn't know Mr heng was there. haha. Then ate lunch there. After that followed Mr Heng to the cd shop then i got bored so called up Timothy where he was then i asked him to follow me walk around parkway parade. haha. Then we went to the band room for awhile or so.

Haha Keisha got no where to go so i asked her to follow me and band mates to go to Plaza Sing to look for my solo book. So i asked her to meet me outside St pats so we did. My friends were there too. Then took 36 to plaza sing. haha. Then went to Yamaha and boy was it big. So look for some solo book. Then timothy helped me pick one. THANKS TOE!!!! lol. And baby, I'm sorry for leaving you alone that time!!!! i was in need of solo book. SORRY BABY!!!! Then after that went home. HEH.

Then on Saturday woke up late. I missed the breakfast meeting. SORRY GUYS!!! So i went to bandroom straight. Then had meeting with Mr Heng. Then went for lunch and met the sec 2's there then went band room helped clean abit and practiced abit then went home. haha

thats my life a bandboy life. haha

i miss my baby girl
i missed her loads
i want to see her everyday
i want to see her every hour of my life
i want to see her every minute every second of my life
i want to be around her every seconds of my life
why can't it be like that??
baby i miss you loads and loads =((
i love you loads forever and ever baby<3

2007-11-07T20:08:00.000+08:00

THE O'S ARE OVER/GONE/POOF/BYEBYE BABY!!1! N BOY AM I HAPPY

i went home after my last paper today to get dressed for a celebratory cum shopping trip to overrated Vivo with renee & maxine. shopping was gd, but i only spent 80bucks. Vivo is so bloody big/large/enormous/whatev i swear. my poor poor feet, but catching up with the girls after the o level hiatus was worth all my while.

xxxx Izza

2007-11-04T23:09:00.001+08:00

Hey people!! IM SORRY VANESSA!!!! lol. I just didn't feel like posting lah im sorry. And baby im sorry for ytd night. i feel like an asshole but NVM. haha. But yet i feel something wrong.

i'm sick and tired of feeling this shit. why why why?!?!?!
i feel like we're drifting apart.like getting further and further away.
and baby don't worry it isn't you. =))

2007-10-13T23:36:00.000+08:00

Hey people. I'd like to wish to every muslim family out there a HAPPY HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI! And my raya isn't any diff from any other normal day. Beginning was bad enough due to someone. heh.

please?? don't be like that??
it hurts me so bad i can't bear the pain
I've teared so much and its all drying.
I can't keep this any longer.
I don't know what to do, what to say, how to help.
But i'm not giving up cause i've promised you that i'll never give up.
But yea please?

Sometimes i feel like you should do what you want.
I mustn't control your life. its yours not mine
Do what you want to make yourself happy.
Do it not for me but for yourself.
As long as you're happy I'm happy.

Now i don't know how I'm feeling.
I want you to do what you want.
I also want you to do whats best for you.
I just can't think.
I don't know how to help when i want to

this is driving me nuts!
God, someone, just help me. ='((

4 more days!! =))

2007-10-09T23:12:00.000+08:00

I've been really stress over exams lately and i soooo need to relax. cause everytime i feel like tearing. Where ever i turn to there's sadness, can i just get out of this pile of shit. please??

Night study at the airport was kinda fun but there were moments where i felt down don't ask why. and ya. anw, pics

2007-09-30T16:40:00.000+08:00

Hey fucker, I'm telling you once again. don't you dare make a move on her or bloods will be streaming down from your face i tell you. i repeat. You don't force her to do things if she doesn't want to. You don't. YOU DON'T.

2007-09-29T01:37:00.000+08:00

Hey people!! Okay this might be the last time I'm blogging since i really really need to concentrate on my exams. Damn it. I can't take the pressure thats on me. i seriously need help.

Alright alright. Have been to focused on my science and maths too much and i need to work my ass of on my other subjects. And i need something to keep me awake. They say coffee helps but i don't drink coffee. heh. I'm a tea kind of person. so yea. lol.

YOU i want to save you, i really want to. but i really really don't know whats going on.
I'm sorry for being this way.
Even though you're mine but I'm sorry i just feel so...
I don't know. I know you're helpful towards that guy.
But what made me feel that way is just that, you JUST got to know him.
I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. And do not blame yourself please.
You did nothing wrong at all. It's me for being like this, for feeling this way.
And that girl is a good friend. And i only talk to her when i meet her.
But that guy, you talk to him as though you've known him for a long time.
Its like you've known him longer than me.
I'm sorry. i just don't want to lose you.
You mean so much to me and i don't want to lose you.
I'm sorry if I'm not helping at all. I just don't know how to
I really don't know. I'm sorry. I'm really really sorry.
And baby please cheer up?? don't think about all this alright??
Please cheer up?? And again I'm sorry. =((

2007-09-20T14:29:00.000+08:00

PRELIMS ARE OVER BABY!
what a relief, but the o's are in frickkin 32 dayz panikkk. i went for a little retail therapy after the prelim period today with the best friends so now i am officially broke. no more shopping until the end of the o levels so that then, i can shop till i literally drop. am. very. excited. prelim results are out tmr, not all but the papers we did earlier how can they possibly do this to us i mean the prelims just ended!!11!1! inhumane i tell you. okay gtg you should see my lj it's much more happening there.

i wna go to a flea market. zouk plz thankyou

xxxx Izza

2007-09-16T13:41:00.000+08:00

sorry i just need to say something...

everytime i try to understand how you feel you say nothing.
everytime i try to help i can't cause i don't know whats going on
everytime i feel as though im not needed.
i'm here to help but you don't tell me.
everytime you say its nothing when i can tell its something.
i feel as though we're not what we were.
maybe its my fault maybe its not.
if it is im really really sorry i don't know what to do.
im really really sorry.
im sorry. =((

2007-09-15T15:42:00.000+08:00

Hey hey! so i woke up like around 12 plus. kinda late. so ya. lol

so then i decided to explore friendster and study in the afternoon. HAHA. exploring friendster was kinda fun. read past testimonials and msges. haha. viewing friends and other people's profile. then got quite bored of it.lol

i need to study later!!! very very urgent!!! later that is. lol. today is gonna boring and stressy. lol. boring cause i don't know. stressy cause of studies. lol. I GOTTA BE HARDWORKING DUDE!!! im not working hard enough!!! I NEED TO STRESS MYSELF LIKE MAD. but i can't do that. cause i hate it. lol. STUDY RAHIM!!! EXAM ISN'T THAT LONG!! IF YOU DON'T STUDY YOU WILL STAY BACK AND DIE!! okay that scared me. heh.

OK STUDY STUDY STUDY!!!

why?? why does all these pictures running through my mind affecting me the way i feel??
please please i don't want to feel all these
its just so very very irritating. please
gotta stop.

2007-09-02T20:19:00.000+08:00

Hey Hey! Izza, i'm sorry if im too quiet now-a-days. lol. I'm just like that. HAH. But im really sorry. msg me when you can alright!!! =))

Anyway. I'm just going to say something, if yall don't care then you're problem. lol

If im not your _____ why giving me all the things you have given me. If I'm not smart then I'm the stupid-iest. so what. im stupid i can't do anything good. What good can i do. If you're so smart then why ____________________ me since i'm stupid. If you're so smart then why can't you tell why i was feeling like shit staring into space and keeping quiet. You should realize what you've done to demoralize me.

thats it. take care peeps! And study hard for your EOY!!!

2007-08-31T10:57:00.000+08:00

1. I got a B4 for Malay and a distinction for oral so I'll be retaking omg what a waste of my time. I. hate. Malay.

2. Yesterday was my last day in KC, how sad I'm gna miss Amy and Kimberly, and all the 4/4 homiezzz- Amelia, Elisabeth, Boon, Denisia and Valerie.

3. I skipped sch today I'm so hardcore.

4. Prelims in two weeks omg panikkk

5. Rahim, where have you been I hatechu ha ha

Okay I gta start mugging, 'cause I'm gna make it to jc!!11!1! yay okay bye bye

2007-08-25T18:57:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps. sorry i've not blogged for days, weeks and, months i think. heh. Today i call my self the guy who busted one of the most important thing in life. lol.

If you have to choose between something that you love, but you love both, which would you choose? something that's been with you for a long time and will still carry on? or something new that you're just gonna do it for one day?

Anyway i took part in this soccer tournament in school, kinda fun but alot of guilt was there. My team lost so ya lah. lost to 2 other school team. Then i went to plan some lan games with some of the team-mates. After that went to eat then we went home. heh. So anyway thats how boring my life is till that made me not update sooo much. lol

take care.
!~raraman loves keisha~!

2007-08-07T16:18:00.000+08:00

Rahim, I heard abt what happened today. Call me xx

2007-08-05T15:03:00.000+08:00

Hey people!! sorry for the late late late blogpost. And thank you Izza for not making my blog sooo dead. lol. and yea you did. don't worry.

Okay actually i don't know why but ya i feel so different now. I don't know why but ya i just feel it.

So ytd had some performance at Joo Chiat for some national day dinner thingy where there were some guest from the parliment or something. not sure of it. we had our slots from 6.30-8 plus i think. im not sure of the time. then reached school around 9+ had meeting then went to have supper with Mr. Heng, Gerald, Marcus, James and Ridzwan. lol. ate prate and murtabak. haha. damn nice though. Mr Heng then paid for my cab fare since i was rushing home and i had no money.

i hate it when you ruin my plans for the day. can you just leave me alone to what i do and what time i do things. can you just leave me alone!!

2007-07-26T16:52:00.000+08:00

Rahim, your blog is so stale.

This is Izza, & I'm posting because Rahim-the-ding-dong doesn't feel like doing so. I got my Topshop leggings today omgz I'm ecstatic. I gta save up moreee for prom and other stuff I'm bound to want along the way. EH RAHIM DID I TELL YOU THAT I GOT SECOND IN CLASS FOR BIO? Omg right! I'm gna treat myself (yay). I'm gna abuse your blog too. This is for giving me your username and password rawharhawharaha! Okay gtg online shop now kbye.

2007-06-17T13:48:00.000+08:00

So this post is going to be about someone irritating, its stupid though.

Fuck you! She asked him and then he said i could but you just have to spoil the fucking mood! But what the fuck did i do!! I was about to ask you after i shower but all u had to do is scold me!! Just what the hell did i do?!?!?! Who said i will go even if i don't ask permission?!?! Obviously i will permission to go out right u stupid son of a bitch!!! Can you fucking think before you say any bullshit!! Can you just think!! And what excuse did u give me?!?!?! Not doing my fucking project! Its a fucking group project you idiot!!! Even my group members mom told you!!! SO WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT!!! I was about to go out with him and her under his permission!!! But you have to spoil the day!!!

thats what happen today.

Yesterday i didn't go for my juniors practice cause of some reason. Then i went band in the afternoon and it was fun. Sight read a piece, the song damn nice you know. Haha. Then after that went cycling with my cousin while her parents and sister went for a jog. Was kinda fun though. Haha. After that i just went to sleep over my cousins house. I slept kinda late as usual. Then i just realise that idiot didn't do what i asked her to do which she promised.

Sorry guys for such a bad post. better post next time i guess.
ps:BITCH FUCK YOU!!!

2007-06-13T00:00:00.001+08:00

Kay i just need to say something. Lol. "I can only pray that God is listening, Is he listening??" Is he really listening? If he is why is everything going all bad, He knows what i need. but im not getting it. all i've been recieving is totally the opposite. why why why?? why is there such things as feelings? why is there past? wwhy do people ask to forget about the past but why can't i forget about the past? i really NEED to. not want. NEED. i just don't want all these to get screwed up. i just want to make you happy and thats all. thats all i want to. but i don't seem to be doing that.

ps: im sorry

2007-06-12T23:01:00.000+08:00

Hey! sorry people for not blogging!! Especially Vanessa and my baby. Practically i didn't blog cause everytime i want to i just don't feel myself. Lol, weird but ya.

Okay i've been having band practices on Mondays and Wednesday and Saturdays. And then i'm taking part in the Finale Band for the presentation night. I can't wait for the practices though cause I'll get to see hott girls from CJC band. HAHAHA!!! But none of them are as hott as my darling baby lah. haha.

Note:Please support the SPSMB by going to the Presentation Night on the 17 July from 7.30-10.00. Tickets are on sale through SISTICS at $5 per ticket. All the tickets are free seating.

Anyway these days people are like having problems here and there. Every person i talked to are having problems. But when it comes to me, i don't tell anyone. I'm low-profile kay. Haha. Why are all these problems occurring now?? Is it the "problem" season??? C'mon people, there are ups and downs in a lifetime, so sometimes there would really be a heart-aching moment and sometimes there will be times when u are just not yourself, and sometimes you're just plain happy. So people out there!!! cheer up aites!!!

~ciao

2007-05-25T18:19:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps. Sorry have not blogged for quite some time. its just exams thats stressing me out. i only passed 2 subjects. that is maths and science. okay now i hate myself for not preparing from the beinning. should have done that long ago. then my mommy scolded me really bad. and yeah i deserve it. but then she added some nonsensical things. then ya.

thats it i can't say any further. sorry guys.

My Baby; Baby please don't do stupid stuff although u've done kinda bad for ur results. There are both up and down in every person's life. Please don't do stupid stuff. Baby i love you loads and loads alrights. Please just show the results and get things done and over. Then you can start a new chapter for the next semester. Love you loads and loads baby!!!! cheer up alrights!!! =))) Love ya!!!

2007-05-13T10:08:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps! sorry couldn't blog. had examinations. so ya. exam was okay i guess. i screwed social studies and geography for that im very very sure. AND AND maths paper one and malay paper. I'm gonna die. well the rest was okay. so after dnt which was on friday and my last paper i went to the band room played my instrument. I COULDN'T PLAY ANYTHING!!! so to help me for wednesday i brought back my mouthpiece.

ok after all prayers and all i went to follow tariq's jamming session. well it wasn't that nice cause they didn't play properly and all. so ya. then danish had to be moody. he just had to. lol. tehn we went to danish house there where the soccer court was. then me danish, shawn, budi, faizal, tariq and gavin met gerald and all his friends. then i joined gerald's team. damn i suck that day. HAHA. but that gerald's friend not bad. has skills. then went home got changed then went dinner with my family. then i saw my schoolmate there!! haha. i think his mom is working there. haha. so nice of him to help out.

ok then on saturday i went out to watch spiderman 3. haha. first i went to fetch Keisha before meeting my friends. She was looking really good. hehehe. anw, ya took the bus then went to tampines. then tariq said to meet them at the macs. so i went there they were not there. then he said he was at the place where all the bus stops. then saw them then from then on. Keisha was damn damn damn damn damn quiet. she's always like that. so then my friends went to watch their malay movie first then me and Keisha was damn damn bored. then went to walk around and around and around.

haha ok, I WONDER HOW GIRLS CAN SHOP FOR SO SO SO SO LONG!!!! lol then went macs to sit down for quite quite long. then went up tariq called saying they finished. so ya we queued up. damn long. then after that went kfc. they all were eating but i was drinking cause before that i ate chicken rice. haha. so ya then watched spiderman 3. then after that i sent keisha home then i went home. haha. ok. seems kinda boring but ya lah. lol.

and baby!!!! don't be sorry okay!!! its natural for someone to be quiet around people they're not used to. okay!! i still love you alrights baby!!! i love you loads and loads and loads!!!! =)))))))))))))))

ciao peeps!!

2007-04-27T19:33:00.000+08:00

HEY HEY HEY!!!! Have not blog for quite some time already. lol. Anw, i just loooooveeeeee 17/4/07!!!!! cause i loooooooveeeeee heeeeerrrr!!!!! hehehe.

Okok changing topic here, life's pretty okay now ever since i got my baby!!!! hehe. OK!! besides that, life's kinda stress now cause of studies, exams. and many many more. lol. but nevermind!!

Haha, okay today i went to bedok macs and eat after prayers with Gavin and Faizal. then was sitting there until we got bored of that place. Then we went to Gavin's block there and played soccer awhile and then i got drenched cause i went under the rain for fun. I was like having a shower. haha. I fell down a few times cause of the slippery floor. Then i saw Melanie and Jacklyn. Not sure of how to spell her name though.

Then me Gavin and Faizal went to the aunty shop. she was really nice. lol. We bought cup noodles as were hungry and was feeling cold. the cup noodles made us warm. lol. Then we sent Faizal to the bus stop. And Gavin and i went home after that.

so ya that was my day. it was fun. lol. until it lasted. haha.

ciao peeps
~raramanlovesherloadsandloadsandloads!!!!!

2007-04-13T22:07:00.000+08:00

YAY!!!!!!!!! SPSMB HAS DONE IT AGAIN!!!! GOLD WITH HONOURS!!! WE WERE THE FIRST BAND TO GET IT!!! but we got it loads of times. lol. but the worst thing is that i screwed up my first solo!!!! AHHHH!!!!! it sux dude!!!!!!! musn't do the same mistake in 2009. we shall wait!!!

haha kok im just sooo happy for how well the band has done. but i really pity some bands... some of them work really hard but they didn't get the results they were hoping to get. COGRATS TO ANG MO KIO SEC SCH TOO!!! they have achieved gold with honours also. SAS ppl!!! all the best of luck!!! i know u will get the gold with honours!!! i've heard u guys played ur piece. so yea!!! all the best!!!

bb take care!!!

~raraman~

2007-04-06T23:53:00.000+08:00

hey ppl sry for not blogging in a long time...SRY HANIS!!! lol. okok so actually i did post in the afternoon!!! but i forgot to see if it was publushed cause was rushing for tuition. heh. but it was 2 long paragraph okay!!!! waste my bloody time only. lol but i remember one paragraph. lol

okok. so as i was saying. in the afternoon i always do some thinking. i don't know why but ya. just now i thought of what kind of child am i? why can't i just do what my parent's want me to do? why must i do all these stupid stuffs? why can't i just be the kind of child she was hoping i would be? why is it sooo hard to do just what she wants? why can't i just find answers own my own? why am i sooo fragile??? yes i know its a need to share but i just don't like to ecpress my feelings to u. i just can't. ok.

so i gtg now.

bb peeps!!!

!~raraman~!

2007-03-18T20:41:00.000+08:00

KUALA LUMPUR!!!!! was okok. hahaha!! but very very tiring. but the malaysians were friendly. made friends with some band members from malaysia. the final day performance wasn't that nice. but the the ppl there were fantastic!!! haha.

last day when we got back to the hotel, i lay flat on the bed. haha. while everyone else was enjoying in my room. but then i woke up at around 4 am. haha! they were still awake playing cards. so i joined them after i took a shower. haha

so that was kuala lumpur haha!! ouh ya i saw my distant cousin there. haha. okok bye!!

raraman!

2007-03-02T22:22:00.000+08:00

hello!! ok today the day was kinda boring. haha. band was ok...i nearly fell asleep. but i went to toilet to wash my whole face. haha. then i got my seniors solo. haha i don't know if it was good lah. but i know i need to improve. haha.

okok next week i can't go for sec 3 camp. i'll be in band everyday. but that time i can improve!! yes!! haha. okok enough for now. haha. okok. but thats all i have to say. hahaha.

fall out boy new albums songs ain't that bad. kinda nice. haha. in fact its damn nice. HAHA.. okok bye bye

raraman!!!

2007-02-24T21:27:00.000+08:00

hello!!! okok today band was boring. but for the first time my section came a 100% attendence for the sec 3 horns.. haha. but overall band was boring.. i fell asleep and mr glosz had to scold me. haha!!!

okok since i was bored the whole day. i type smth out...and lame. but it rhymes. HAHA.

every single day
i have to pay
i have suffer
from everyone's anger
needles do i say
i am not okay
it can be very well seen
my life is unseen

ok that was one of them
and another

as i walk through this lonely night
i can't fight the beast that's insight
as it came closer
my last few thoughts was abt her
before she became this beast
and now im giving myself to her as a feast

okok that actually doesn't make any sense but nvm haha!!

take care!!

2007-02-19T22:08:00.000+08:00

hey people..okok fine im updating ok... as long as it stops the complaining... haiyer...but when i update its the same thing as i don't update now...cause theres nothing much going on in my life. haha. damn boring life i know. haha.

okok today is monday, school holidays. dam boring didn't get to go out though..but i wrote some crap but i lost it...damn..wait i'll try to remember abit abit.

i wonder how its like
to be with you
if only we can be together
i hope we can get through

everytime i wanna tell u
smth is pulling back
smth to do with the past
which is a fact

okok thats all i can remember.. haha
take care! lol..go to sleep everyone!! haha

2007-01-15T17:16:00.001+08:00

hey hey people! sorry i've not blogged in for days or maybe weeks. heh. i don't know when was the last time i've blogged. LOL.

anw. life's preety ok. more problems then last time though. sometimes i hate to admit it but i miss the past loads and loads and loads. i don't quite like what im getting now. everythings changing. but what's done is done. i really hope i can change the past to make a better future. thats one wish that'll never come.

anw its been really rainy now-a-days. and im falling really ill. im having a high fever plus having a bad day every single day. sheesh. can someone pls cool me down! heh.

sometimes when i see someone, i think of that someone. i can't get that someone out. especially when i listen to those kinda sad songs u know.

okok enough already. now abt school. bloody hell the PSL board took me out of the sec 1 orientation camp just cause i was busy with band at first. lol. but nvm ah. band, this year we're having syf so gotta practice hard. haha. and school works. bloody hell my combine human teacher always pick on me! of all people me! called my mom twice. but the second time i don't know if im gonna get scolding from my mom cause she's not home yet.

okok thats it for now.

take care people!!
~raraman

2007-01-15T17:16:00.000+08:00

2006-12-28T01:04:00.000+08:00

heylo ppl!!! kk so im always blogging kinda late haiya.. so what. nvm

anw's, the days at kl. was fun. hahaha. but the trip on the way there was superbly the boring. my butt hurts okay. sitting in the car for soo long. haiya. plus sometimes getting squashed by bro and sis too ok. the first dinner we had was at hard rock cafe. hahaha. the food there was nice. haha. they had nice shirts and caps too haha. then went back. haha. the room we had.was small. haha. but nvm.. haha it was like an apartment.. a living room and a bedroom. haha. my sis slept on the sofa, bro slept on the roll in bed and me, on the floor. haha. it was comfortable kay!! ahhah

haha. then 2nd day haha. had to wake up early. haha. not nice ah wake up early. haha. im soo used to waking up late. haha. anw we went to some place which i can't possibly remember what the place name is. haha. but i remember challenging my couz for some shooting crap. haha. i lost!!! ahahahaha. damn i suck! haha. but i don't get it man. but nvm hahaha. then went back to the hotel.

then swimming the next day. haha. me and afiq made some swimming diving lmao moves. ahahaha. but fun ah. hahaha. i got the pics but can't upload them for now cause i don't have 'em. haha. then went to the twin tower shopping centre. haha. then met some young kid actor and actress. haha. one girl was preety. haahaha. the guy for a 12 year old, he's big, or is it im short?? hahaha.

ya ya. okok im just lazy to type more ok. hahaha... ciao

~raraman

2006-12-16T14:55:00.000+08:00

hey hey peeps! long time since i've blog...lol sry again.

anw...other time went to jurong bird park to perform there...haha. then the st stphen's brass band also performed there. haha. the horn section there i tot them. only for awhile. haha. they were damn cute lah. and im proud of them cause they can play the piece. haha. walau. then all the patrician members abit the boring ah. haha... they clap but nvr dance. haha. me and sir ridz went to clap and dance... nice songs they played. then when out turn to play we played nice music. haha. mostly we enjoyed ourselves. then mr Dee played my horn for the the piece 'shrek'. haha.

then we had a tour around using the monorail. haha. i wanted to see the biggest man-made waterfall. haha. couldn't see. i guess we had to stop on one of the stops. haha. then we watched the feeding time for the penguins haha...damn cute lah.

penguins

haha.. cute sia the penguins. haha. the pic abit the blurr ah. i know.

if im not wrong i posted abt this before...excluding the pics...hahaha nvm nvm.

then had some wedding performance haha. but before went to school...i met up with vanessa. haha. she said i looked small!!! which i am but ya. haha. nvm.. passed her the tickets to the vjc concert. haha. then they left. me and quan li went to vjc for awhile. haha. see the rehersal abit. ahaha. then went back to school. haha. kinda late but nvm. haha. then we all went to grand hyatt. i don't know how to spell ah. but nvm. haha. the guy must be damn rich lah to have his wedding in a 5 star hotel ballroom. waa then make us starve. walau.. we didn't get to eat. the food all smell damn nice sia. haha. then after everything we went home. ahaha.

then ytd which was a friday on 15 dec was a bad enough for me. not gonna say the bad part. anw. went to vjc concert. haha. the whole thing was damn nice. haha. the skit was funny too. ahaha. the guy damn funny lah. he acted as austin powers. ahaha. damn funny lah. haha. then went home went online. haha.

okok
ciao ppl
~raraman

2006-12-11T15:38:00.000+08:00

hey hey!!! long time since i've blog. heh. sry sry. my fault...

anw. the days at the band camp was fun but quite boring to. haha. well...i did made some new friends, since the camp was mixed with SAS and SAJC. haha. i wonder why there are some rivalry between SAS and SPS... the SAS people seem nice. haha. they were friendly. haha. and SAJC people were nice to. but im not planning to go there after O's. haha. which is a LONG long way to go. ahaha.

then we had to play and ensemble. the horn ensemble. haha....sucky but ya.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0GdGJZMNZy4

haha. that was our not soo nice horn ensemble. hahaha. but the SAS even worse then us.. haha. NO OFFENCE GUYS... according to my alumni...we were around the same as SAJC. haha..

then the next day after camp, we had the performance at the jurong bird park. haha. boy was it fun. haha... then after the whole performance we had a tour around the whole jurong bird park in the monorail or smth. haha. we didn't see the biggest man-made waterfall. wasted. haha. then after that we went to watch the feeding time of the penguins. haha. the penguins were damn cute lah. haha..

after the whole thing we went back to school...after that a group of ppl went to parkway. me and quan li went to tm and had our desert. haha. then we went home.

ciao~raraman

2006-12-01T17:23:00.000+08:00

hey people!!! have not blogged for damn long already. ahha... don't know actually. haha. okok.. so anw. ytd which was on the 30th nov i went to vivocity with someone and lutfi..which somehow i felt awkward. haha... cause that was suppose to be some cousin outing or so and actually there were 8-10 of them. haha. then i don't really know that someone's cousins and all. haha.

anw im just making this more complicating. haha. so i shall just say what i did. haha... anw i met someone and lutfi at tamp mrt. haha. then took the train then went to vivo city. haha went to eat long john silver for lunch. but i didn't eat i only bought some coke. haha. offered some coke to that someone but that someone wasn't feeling that well so ya. then we went to watch the movie "deck the halls". but while buying popcorn and drinks i saw syafiqah, then i was like "SYAFIQAAAHH!!" haha. she was shocked of cause. ahha

then we watched and poor syaf and her friends got the lowest seats... haha. but i was sitting around the middle row next to that someone. haha. the show was damn funny lah. haha. got one part where the son goes" spongebob come in this is squarepants"haha. the movie damn funny lah...so after the movie we went to sky park or smth like that. haha. the view damn nice. nice place to be with someone special. haha.

so we went home. and in the mrt i was next to that someone. heh. sweet smiles. haha.

okok ciao

love her.....
~raraman

2006-11-25T21:35:00.000+08:00

hello. today was a great day. hah.. long time never meet melanie. haha. but nvm. haha. anw, these few days had been very tiring for me. band prac band prac and more band prac. very tiring. haha. anws. soccer was also fun. ahaha. played soccer after band ytd. haha. the parents damn busted sia. haha. they all come during muslim's friday prayers. haha. in the morning never come. damn busted sia. haha. kk...nothing else to say... haha. ouh ya. got a new com.. now sis, me and bro can use com at the same timing. haha.

~ciao

2006-11-19T17:13:00.000+08:00

Okok. i've not blogged in for a few daes already... sry. lol. btw, hello ppl. haha... i bet this post gonna be long.

anw other time i went jalan raya with me band friends to a few hse's. haha..first was my hse. haha. i kept quiet most of the times there and only talked to my brother. the rest were like watching tv and all...when the food was ready for them. the nuggets were the fastest to finish. haha...like wth. no more nuggets for me. haha...

then went to afiq hse. then they all were talking and all. afiq mum wasn't at home. she was working and his dad was washing the car for damn long. haha. then his siter help him to serve us. haha. hardworking ah.. haha..okok.. that was kinda stupid.

then we went to danial hse haha. his family potrait was damn nice lah. haha. he looked damn cute when he was young. haha. then his mum was very friendly. haha...rauf all act as though thier hse. lay down on the floor all. ahaha...then his mum cooked for us lontong and some soup or whatsoever its called....haha...but i ate 2 chicken and 1 lontong...haha..."very filling" haha. not...
then we went to cikgu faheema hse. haha. i barely know her lah. haha...but just go. haha...i just sat down. talk to friends... then she got this kapsuka or something.haha the egg was seperated so i took the egg and ate it with bread..hhahaha...very pathethic i know...haha.

then went cikgu rozana hse. haha..there got no food lah. but ya... he fruits i only took apple. haha...the drink was nice...after her hse we went to the playground then play ice and water. hahaha...cheat sia they all...just cause i can run fast they ask me be ice. haha. bladdi toot..

after all the fun was over i went under melanie's block and met up with her forawhile then joseph came. his eye was damn red lah walau. he damn tired. lol...and then he left. lol...then we went coffee shop buy her drink haha. then go to the playground sat down forawhile there. then gavin saw us. haha. then he waved at us. haha then i waved at him. then his mom saw me. then i waved at her.. then she waved back. haha...

the following day my bro went jalan raya with his friends then they came over to our hse. haha.my turn to clean all the dishes haha. but nvm. then on friday i went jalan raya again but with another group of friends. haha. first hse was afiq(my couz) then alot of them were talking then while eating afiq's mum called me not to do stupid stuff and i said ya ok i won't. lol.

then we went down. to think first where to go. but we all don't know where to go and all we just went to tampines mrt just stand around and talked about where to go and all. then danish said we could only go his hse in the evening. i said ya ok. but tariq all said go his hse now...then in the end we went tariq hse. do like nothing there lah. tariq and danish were like playing the guitar then the rest we like talking about songs and all.

after we went to danish hse. and yeah his place was damn fun. played soccer games and all then we suppose to play soccer then what my mom said cannot cause of this and that like walau lah. not fair lah. but nvm lah. then i went ohome with my mom. afiq also followed us. tariq and rest went home earlier damn busted lah tariq..lol

ciao
~raraman

2006-11-12T21:58:00.000+08:00

Hey people! okok. didn't blogged for 3 2 days cause was away from kl and i just came home today. and trust me, i thought i would have loads of fun...but was kinda boring. lol. okok.

First day:
The day going for kl, took a bus there and by was the bus comfy. haha. The seats were all seperated, there was massage. lols. got tv, music videos. but don't actually have all lah, only got certain songs..lol. got movie some more. damn nice movie...lol. got lame games. and don't know what else ah. haha..didn't really explore the thingi. haha. then i reached the house. boy was it like a resort..but it wasn't my first time there so ya. haha. was damn bored lah. didn't swim. only thing i did was eat, then watched tv, then fell asleep. don't call me a pig ok...haha. then got some raya shit at night. still boring, but the food was nice....mmmmmmmmmmmmm. haha

Second day:
woke up, had breakfast. second day another one. damn boring lah walau!!! no shopping!! couldn't go klcc.. walau!!! watched tv, ate lunch, then watched tv, then slept...hahahaha. then go sleep. haha...didn't do anything much lah 2nd day so thats it for that day.

Third day:
so fast ah third day?? haha. actually it didn't seem fast. haha. third day, the little boys went to play soccer at don't know where. my mom followed. i didn't follow cause i was sleeping nicely. haha. then i woke up and eat breakfast. watched tv at it was fast till 4. then dad came to pick me and mom up. haha. had a long trip home. haha...tiring lah in the car for sooo long...hahaha...then now im home chatting online...YAY!!! haha..

ciao
~raraman

2006-11-09T21:54:00.000+08:00

Hey people, okok' i've not blogged in for like, erm...1 week i gues.. haha. anw, past 3 days i had some leadership camp. at first it was okay, and everyone in my group was like, silence. they don't really socialise. until the senior talk to us asked us to know each other better. so the first day wasn't much fun. haha. but the first night we had night trail and it was fun. creating alot of chaos. haha...but yea it was still fun. made new friends.. some of them was damn irritating lah. but nevermind. haha.

second day, morning was okay lah. but afternoon, wasted sia!! the band called me to come...like wth lah. then mario was like...eh faster go band.. then i was like fine lah fine lah. then he told the seniors i was coming late. seniors came looking for me. forcing me to come. so i wasted nice activities during the day time. but suffer now enjoy later. suffer practising the choice piece now than enjoy playing the piece during syf. than at night, my grp had to make a scene about service. so we decided to make a good and bad service scene. then on the way back, my friend told me something freaky happened to him. not gonna say lah. lol. we had a dinner buffet. haha

than today, morning we did some warm up shit lah. don't know for what...i never do the stretching properly. haha. was lazy lah. than afternoon we had some lecture. damn boring...i slept during the lecture. haha. no respect...what kind of leader am i. nevermind. still i am. ahaha.

anw. YAY!! im a peer leader now. lols
ciao

~~raraman

2006-11-02T22:05:00.000+08:00

Hello. lols... gonna post about yesterday. haha. Anw, yesterday, had breakfast with Dominique. haha..she damn wierd lah...like first time eating breakfast. haha...only eat lunch like that. haha. i bought for her one u know. actually i owe her dinner. but i couldn't make it at night, so i decided to take to breakfast...at macs...HAHA..okok. she wasted food wasted the egg from the burger, haha...shall not say anymore..haha

So than went to band but at the same time took 10 with dominique since she was on her way to siglap..haha.. she showed me a video of a comedian. haha. damn funny lah
haha.. i forgot his name lah...i tell u one joke he told.

from the video:
"okok. the white kids are cool u know what i mean, they can do whatever they want. u see...so i asked my friend what he does when he's parents asked him to clean up he's room....so he taught me to scold my mom "FUCK YOU BITCH!!" and so i did. and like wise my dad will go like " someone's gonna get really hurt" which is an OBVIOUS me. haha but why would he wanna say that when its so obvious its me???...hahaa....soo anw went to school the next day and told my friend that my dad was still threatening me so yea he told to threaten my dad that to call the abuse or whatsoever of children...ahahaha...than my dad goes like, "o0o0o0o0o0o0o...im sooooo scared..... i'll pass u the phone...at least those people will come here in like 25 mins...and someone's gonna get hurt in that 25 mins"..and so i prayed it would be my bro"...hahas...okok...damn lame lah but damn funny lah

than at night i was on the phone with vanessa and keisha for like...until 4?? hahahas vamessa fell asleep while on the phone..lols...but its ok lah...it was damn late lah haha...but yea...today she's damn tired

thats it lah...lazy to post more...
~~ciao

~~raraman

2006-10-31T21:31:00.000+08:00

Hello people!! okok...today..was just plain boring...woke up, cleaned the house...mom asked me to go bedok to pay something and so i did. So went there, pay the car bill. And then i went to meet azzaidy at tamp mart than went to meet haikal under his block. haha both of them dye their hair brown..haha. Azzaidy's hair was nice...but haikal's one, didn't turn out too well.. haha

Anw, slacking with them was boring lah. HAHA. no offence guys. but yea. anw, than came home. mom asked me to buy something so i did. At the same time i bought curry puffs from the same shop. HAHA...i bought 6!! haha.. it was nice okay. HAHA.. don't call me greedy. HAHA. than i called my mom if i could play soccer. she say we'll catch things up when im home...so i got home...kept quiet...mom didn't say anything abt playing soccer...SO yea, when i was about to ask her if i could play soccer, she said she was feeling dizzy, so i decided to stay home to watch after her..i know im a good son...HAHA..

so yea thats it for today...HAHA...lame joke lame joke time...HAHA

Q: Which crabs did the crabby patty come from??
A: From Mr. Crabs himself...HAHAHA....SUPER lame sia me!!!

Q: What is the secret ingredient in the crabby patty??
A: Mr Crabs fats..HAHA....=.=''''''.....can someone please!!! ask me to stop being lame!!!cause the jokes ain't funny!!

~~raraman

2006-10-29T15:38:00.000+08:00

Hello people..okok i've not blog for like a few days already. heh. Either i was busy or i was too lazy...i think both. lols. okok. Yesterday...i totally forgot there was band...TOTALLY NOT IN MY MIND! Than band senior called to ask me to go band. So ya lah. I was like ermm....2 hours late!!!hahas..but ya...can't reverse the time.haha. so ya. i listened to what dailami said and i shall listen to him. He made a deal. every band practice, i have to come half an hour early. and i will do that!!

Hari raya yesterday was kinda nice. but most of the house we went to, we we're the only family there. Not as in we're the only family that visit that house, just that when we go there. no one else was there except the family that stays there. lols.So i was bored. At the same time msging sharmaine. lols. i was bored. So i msged her all the way through the visiting period. haha. Thanks SHARMAINE for keeping me company. lols. But than i didn't chat, nor text nor do i get to see mel yesterday.

2006-10-25T22:10:00.000+08:00

Okok..today i woke up damn late...went online. Took a bath than chat for awhile...okok...maybe for a long time..lols.Didn't go out today to jalan raya cause bro had school.heh. so went online. chat with friends..than went down to meet melanie...and yay!! she gave me her zen mp3 since she wasn't using it anymore. heh..than go slack downstairs. talk crap. buy drink...now can drink and eat during day time...HAHA...yay!! lols...okok. lame..

now im back home.bored...called zaharah since yesterday i was suppose to call her yesterday but i didn't. heh.than now online...chatting with vanessa, keisha and melanie. HAHA. and vanessa just taught me how to make fun of the flute section...haha...but i'll keep it a secret..cause i ain't that bad u know...haha..

teacher:vanessa!
both vanessa: yes?!?!?!
teacher:i mean vanessa anne/ann...
both vanessa:yes?!?!?!
teacher:*confused*

haha...stupid joke i know...ciao!
~~raraman

2006-10-25T00:22:00.001+08:00

FINALLY!!! HARI RAYA HAS ARRIVED!!!! HAHA.. okok...well...morning i went for the hari raya morning prayer. And damn was it long...it felt as though sconds were mins, mins were hours...and hours turns to a day...lols. okok..after that...went shop with my bro, and we bought some snacks...the taste of food in ur mouth during bright daylight...yea...tasty. lols...

Damn was i rude at my granny's place on my dad's side. i slept on the couch...but wasn't lying down...lols. but don't matter...tat place was boring.. couldn't tahan. so i slept...than my brother also slept along...my sis...wide awake watching tv. when i woke up, another family came...i sleep like nobody buisness sia..lols.

than went to my granny's place on my mom's side...i saw my distant cuz for after like, 2 years???...the little boy ain't little no more. the girl, kinda matured...kinda preety to...hehehe... then they left. than all my couzins came....we had loads of rubbish fun there. haha. afiq was like...pretending our other cuz was his mother...and talked loads of crap. hahaha... than saw the msged that zaharah sent me and the time she sent was like...6+?? and then i called her...i told her i'd call her back...but i doubt she's awake now...tomorrow i'll just give her a call in the afternoon.

thats it for today..ciao!!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI! MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN!
~~Raraman

2006-10-24T00:06:00.000+08:00

Hey people! didn't do anything much to do today...cleaned up the house...went online..chat with whoever was online...lols...than afternoon at around five...went down...met mel...so i asked her to follow me go to the shop to get my stuff for dinner....than collect...but chen teng for my dad...she bought herself one also...than had to wait for the mak cik to give me the food...waited until 6, than the food was ready. heh...so went to bk for awhile...slack there...than melanie went to brung the stupid container...lols...she was mad lah..haha

HAHA...YAY!!! today is the last day of fasting!! and tomorrow is hari raya!!! boy i can't wait!!! the food the celebration...the $$$...HAHAHA...going to visit my grandparents tomorrow...haha...but in the morning got some prayer...so have to pray first...be holy :D...haha...

okok...and she found out my feelings about her...but yea it was small...i told her i can't do anything about it. but yea she's a good guesser...lol...well well...thats it for today...bye bye

~~raraman

2006-10-23T01:18:00.000+08:00

Hey people! okok, yesterday was boring...so was today... Today, was the final preperation for hari raya. and boy we were busy preparing for the day. Damn i can't wait for hari raya!! But i still did went online for awhile. But now its like, 1.30 am, not that late, i've slept later. And gonna finish preparing for hari raya. All my family left with is the cooking of the ketupat. cooking or boiling??? Don't really know. heh...i think its boil. haha. okok. And plus, tomorrow im not going school!! how great is that??? =.='''

Sometimes, i've been thinking...if i ever had one last chance of falling for u, and u fall for me(which i doubt will never happen again *sigh*), i'll take that last chance, to do whatever i can and stay forever with u. that was just some thoughts. and sometimes, i miss u so, u will just come into my thoughts, and i will just be having no mood to do anything...how i wish that one wish would come true.

2006-10-20T22:56:00.000+08:00

Okok, maybe i've done some wrong, so what the hell is your problem scolding me for no reason sometimes??? im just not good at being a son in this family do i?? i sometimes do think that i was probably misplaced by the nurse and was actually born from a diff family... i mean, whats the whole point to this??? even my studies is way diff from my brother and sisters. They took A maths, i can't take A maths...im whole lot diff from my siblings!!! what am i??

Am i a problem child?? it seems to be that way...and according to my parents, i am. they may be joking, but its a fact...can't turn away from facts...im speechless

anw, the day at the snow city was kinda fun...i had to go up front just to do some experiments with one of the guy just to show how fast a nitrogen liquid can free things... and dude...it was fast...and kind cool. haha...i was damn blurr sia...haha...damn alot of people laughed at me. i made stupid faces...

than yesterday...not gonna post anything abt yesterday. sorry peeps...
~raraman - nick was actually given by a good friend...heh

2006-10-17T19:43:00.000+08:00

Hey people!! today..school was boring. pe was canceled, had to watch some soccer vids. boriiiinnnngggg.... than somone went to shout, "why don't we play and not watch" lols...stupid i know.. haha. than the rest of school day was boring... after school i wanted to o to my friends hse, mom didn't allow.. wth. so went home straight..

came home, msn cannot use...wtf??? than mom scolded me...for like coming home 10 mins late... than went down late just to buy something also must scold...wth?!?!?! running home after that drop some drink for my dad, she scold...everything also scold scold scold. than i was like wtf??? didn't break fast with her today. aiya..thats it lah for today...

boring life ~i know...till next time

2006-10-15T22:03:00.000+08:00

Hey people! kk...today was another boring day. Woke up, cleaned the house, than had to spring clean. Haiya. Than while wiping the window, me and my bro were crazy, we were shouting to the people who look like ants from above...haha. crazy bro = fun cacat bro...HAHA kidding lah... but it was damn funny lah. my brother go shout "OI!" to the people who were cycling. They look up, i point to my brother who was hiding...haha.

Than i went down to meet gavin and amos. they wanted to go cycling. then went to BK, slack there. gavin and amos went cycling. than me and melanie were talking crap lah. than melanie go stupidly burn herself. CACAT...haha but i didn't see any difference. She keep complaining about her arm. than bro called...meeting him at the coffee shop while melanie went to meet eugene.

Than was late for break fast. haha...mom scolded... haiya...thats normal. LOLS...

kk nothing else already. CIAO!!!~~~

2006-10-15T09:32:00.000+08:00

Hey people!! i know its's kinda early. It's because im gonna post about my day in Johor yest. And yes with my family cause i can never go overseas with my friends. KK yesterday woke up kinda late at around 12 but got out of my bed at 1. LOL...stinky!! heh. So got up, and get ready. I was the only who was ready so i decided to go to the shops downstairs first.. So thats what i did.

So after buying some stuff I waited for my family under the block. After they came down we were on the way to Johor. Lols. The traffic Jam was damn long. I wanted to sleep but coudn't. haha. kk. So our family break fast in Johor. Alot of people were breaking fast there. So than went to help my sis to look for her baju kurung. She can't seem to find any. damn. than bought some 'kuih' for hari raya preparation. shit. my english getting worse...lols.... so anw after that went home. heh

so guess thats it ah...damn bored...lols...CIAO!!!!

2006-10-13T21:53:00.000+08:00

Hey people!!! ouhk, today.hmmm was kinda boring. Before prayers went to meet melanie for awhile. first time i see her wear jeans...lols. Than went for prayers, met faizal there. after prayers, went to faizal house for awhile. Danish was soooooo cute. Lols. Faizal also got this hamster, which was getting fat. lols... So we went to a petshop near my house since near his has non just to buy some excercise thingi for the hamster to excercise and loose weight.

So then went to meet gavin under his block. Me and faizal played soccer while waiting for gavin as he went to joshua's house for awhile, don't know for what also. Than gavin came so we played soccer 2 on 1...lols... both of them against me...cool ey?? heh...i was too good that i lost to them :P...lols...which means i aint good at all...i was just plain tired lah...

So i went up, called raihanah and talked to her on the phone for awhile...damn kept quiet most of the time...heh...Than went down again, went to buy my dad's chen teng(or however you spell it) and rice grain. Than met gavin and amos under their block. played soccer. i won gavin by many goals...lols.. sad child for gavin. Tha 2 on 1 again. but this time i won amos and gavin. HAHA...LOSERS!!!... hehe. kidding guys

So went back up. so tired sia.. went online and chat for awhile.. for goodness sake the skin didn't want to change at first...lols... than i forget to click republish... HAHA...

okok...thats it...off now...CIAO!!!

2006-10-11T21:27:00.000+08:00

Waaa!!! just found out that whatever my friend told me abt the girl was a fake!!..lols kk anw...there's a girl who told me she's starting to really like me. so ya...i feel the same way. so i keep msging her now-a-days

kk...EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!!!!!!! FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but im going to fail all my subjects...hehe...sad sad child i am... haiz..hehe...lame..

but what am i to do now-a-daes??? so boring at home, ouh ya! went tm today with gavin and amos. wtf! i told them i could just take the bus, but nooooooo. they say no. they ask me to use amos shitty bike.. not exactly his bike but he found that bike don't know how long ago. k k.. so while cycling, the stupid f*cking chain kept coming out...aiya... like shit sia that bike... waited for gavin like mad, than amos keep showing me how to skid the bike so i tried...heh... then me and amos went somewhere when gavin came back...our turn to make him wait...hehe.. so evil.

so anw, came back home, watched tv, played game, eat, online...and now im chatting...

~toodles, raraman

2006-10-10T16:30:00.000+08:00

Today....it is okay. didn't get much thoughts though cause something else was in my mind. A friend told me the girl went with a guy which i don't know. So today, damn stressful...actually got no mood to update blog also. aiya. sress...exams exams exams exams...those tiny little words can get very annoying when it cycles in your mind. haiz. maybe thats it for today.

2006-10-08T14:16:00.000+08:00

Hey people! kk. yesterday i didn't update so now i'll say about yesterday and about today, later i'll post. So anw, yesterday, was sooooo boring, woke up late than i used the com, didn't study for the whole day yesterday.

So in the afternoon around 6+ i met mel first. so i did after i collected my food. Boy the food was alot, in terms, alot of rote jala. Damn it was heavy, so after that than i met mel. Talk abit than eugene came. I talked to them for awhile, talk about stupid stuff...stupid qns. Than went home, breakfast. My cousins and aunt and uncles all came over to break fast at my hse.

Played games and talk stupid stuff to my couz. Than i went online and chat abit, mel came online so i chat with her. Than she said she was hungry. Than she asked if she could have some roti jala. Lucky thing i could, couz i told my mom i was meeting eugene to pass him the food.

So i went down to meet mel, talked to her abit. I brought her the food to. Slacked for like 5 mins...so short!! lols. Anw after that i went home. And like, my sis signed me off msn and so i let it be. So that was my life yesterday.

till laterzzz...CIAO!!

2006-10-06T23:01:00.001+08:00

Hey people!! Today, went to school, did my exam...and boy, did badly for geog...i can tell for sure. And maths paper 1...can get alot alot alot of correct, unless got calculation error lah. That would be a different story.

After exam's went to play soccer awhile at my friend's condo. DAMN! marks team keeps winning as though like winning streak like that. waa...his team got alot of good players lah i can admit. at least my team was the second best team... :P. after that went to prayers. prayed for awhile...after prayers, i stayed awhile to pray a little extra and than back to soccer! but this time it was near my house.

Mom called me something about my brother's phone still can't be found. My Suspects, can't say cause whoever is reading this might be the suspect. So my mom asked me to call my friends since they came over yesterday. Came home, than had to go down cause my mom asked me to collect food that she ordered and so i did.

Back home, i told my brother i wanted to use the laptop, he say what ah, i've been using it recently. So what if im using it recently. But now im using the com in my parents room.

thats it for now...CIAO!!!

2006-10-04T16:57:00.000+08:00

Hey people! Today i went to school late just cause i fell asleep in the bus...OMG. Than i got out of the bus somewhere i don't know, whereby then i crossed the road and took 10 to go back to school. But when i got to school, a teacher ask me where my badge was and i said i didn't bring it today. And this teacher always give me push-ups for many reason. Went in the general office and the vice pricipal wasn't happy with me. He than caned me 2 strokes. i was like WTH!!! Not fair ah, got caning just cause i came late to school. wtf!!!

So anyway, during recess, as usual, i played soccer, but today was all the normal acads played at the street soccer court. Today the match was like fuck, the bal keep going to each end of the court, rarely in the center. Damn...

After school which was suppose to have science remedial, but it was cancel, so i went library to see Vanessa and Sharmaine but in the end was too lazy. sooo studied with Tariq in the lib. Than after we studied, we went to bedok macs but didn't eat anything cause we went there to meet other friends.

So we met gavin, Gerald, Jerome(my band junior who was just like me in sec 1) and Angela. So i went home with Gavin. When we reached our house, we played soccer awhile with amos in the lobby area at level 6. Played for like, half and hour or so. than i came home and that's when i realised, I LEFT MY LITERATURE BOOK AND NOTES AT THE LIBRARY!!!! i was panicking so went online, but non of my friends online. Than vanessa gave me the idea to call my friends. Thanks vanessa. perhaps thats it for today...CIAO!!!

2006-10-03T21:11:00.000+08:00

Hey people, today morning i woke melanie up today and as usual, she will sound as though she's going back to sleep. so i texted her a message asking her to wake up. So i went to school as usual, but while listening to my mp3, the battery died... couldn't listen to any music on the way school, means i couldn't sleep!!!

In school today SUPPOSEDLY to have P.E. but the teacher didn't come. so there was this female relief teacher. we begged her to let us play soccer, but noooo she wouldn't let us. So the class went havoc. she scolded us but lucky thing...i was asleep. My friend told me the whole story. Than another teacher had to relief us. He also wouldn't let us play soccer, but this teacher was a strict teacher, so couldn't go havoc...lols

So there's nothing much during recess. All i did was played soccer. It was the Normal acad against the express. At first the Express team were loosing so me and one of my good friend were deciding to play for the Exp. team since they had lesser people in the team. but for the past few recess times i've been playing for the express team, all the n.a. team-mates called me TRAITOR!!! But wth, my other friend also played for the express today. he only got abit of scolding from the n.a.'s...

So the lessons after recess, was all crappy. Actually not, it was just me dying for thirst since i was fasting so i went to sleep.So after that i went home. was planning to study, but i fell asleep -.-''''''...so thats it people...ciao!!!

2006-10-03T00:04:00.000+08:00

Today is the day i learn to make a blog, which kinda suck at it. Well have o go through alot of things to make a blog. Skins for blog also must have, or else it'll look boring. went to look for skins. im using this skin for awhile to see if it is nice. I suck at this blog making thingi!!! well..maybe that's it for today. post another one next time..bye people